It looks like I took another little hiatus. Sometimes, I don’t even know where the time goes. I last left you with my journey to happiness, self love and acceptance, and all of those warm and fuzzy things. I am happy to report that I have been fairly successful in that endeavor. I have embarked on a few new adventures which have been scary, but ultimately rewarding. I took a big girl step and moved into my very own apartment. It is the first time I have ever truly been on my own (in the sense of living arrangements anyway). I was worried about being on my own. I thought I would be too poor to have any fun, I would be too lonely, bored, and I would regret it. But I knew it was time. I was kind of over the roommate thing (I loved my newly married roomies, but I knew it would be impossible to find new roommates that I would get along with so well). So, I decided to just go for it and it turns out I love it. I highly recommend you try it if you ever get the chance! I’ve learned how much I enjoy my own company (I know that sounds odd, but really!!). It has made me be more at peace with myself than I have ever been. I also decided to break a few of my rules and that led to the beginning of a new relationship. Sometimes when something feels right, you just have to give it a chance (and rules are meant to broken, right?!). It has been a long…long time since I have opened myself up to someone like I have with him and it has been really hard and quite scary, but well worth it. He is absolutely amazing and I can’t imagine being treated any better. It’s all still very new and honeymoon stage and I have no idea what will happen, but I think that’s part of what makes it’s so fun. And I am enjoying every moment I spend getting to know him.
Things are looking pretty good for me, right?! I think so! But with any journey…it has it’s ups and it’s downs. There a lot of great things happening, but something was creeping up that wasn’t making me feel a little unhappy. I started noticing that I was feeling tired and sluggish, my eczema was flaring up, and my self diagnosed IBS (I refuse to go to the doctor, unless I have to) was becoming unbearable . My clothes were starting to fit a little too snug and I just wasn’t feeling like myself. My current job is much more sedentary than my last, my nutrition had declined drastically, and my exercise regime followed right in line. Add in being in a new relationship and eating out a lot, they were all sabotaging a healthier lifestyle. I stepped on the scale and staring back was an UGLY (yikes, that was a depressing moment!!). I know it’s not all about the number on the scale, but holy moly….NOT GOOD. Some people thought I was crazy when I would say I wanted to diet. But I was definitely starting to dislike what I saw in the mirror and it was so much more than that. I didn’t feel healthy and it was time for a change.
I had done things in the past that really worked for me, but I was finding I just couldn’t quite commit to any of them like I used to. Those things obviously weren’t sticking long term either, so now what? I’ve never liked killing myself in the gym five days a week, counting calories, or depriving myself of the things I love. When I go out, I want indulge in a few glasses of wine or a couple beers. I love baking and I want to eat it ALL!!! I want to devour a delicious burger or steak every now and then. I want to curl up on the couch and enjoy some Ben n Jerry’s without feeling like I need to put in that extra hour of cardio tomorrow. But I also don’t want to load up on crap. I love being active, but I do not want to be a gym rat. I am far too busy and there’s too much life to live! So what’s a girl to do? All those hash tags and pins were telling me I need to workout all the time and I need to eat all this “healthy” food.
My sister introduced me to the The Plan. She was going to do it and invited me to give a go with her. The Plan is a twenty day program. It includes a three day cleanse and then seventeen days of testing different foods to see how they interact with your body. Certain foods cause inflammatory responses in your body which cause you to gain weight and aggravate diseases like eczema, arthritis, and Crohn’s disease. After that twenty days is over you take what you’ve learned and incorporate your friendly foods in to your diet and test your favorite foods. I was like, it’s going to help clear up my eczema and I am going to lose weight? Sign me up!
Anything worth having always requires some work. I wasn’t looking forward to the cleanse portion. I had to give up salt, coffee, and sweets. Those are some of my favorite things!! I also had to eat some food that I was less than thrilled about. It was really hard and I struggled with cravings big time the first couple of days. Properly hydrating myself has me running to the restroom about twelve billion times a day. I have to cook every day (I may love to bake, but cooking is more of a chore). More cooking means more dishes, which is just lovely. However, I am now 6 days in and loving it. It is a structured plan that I can follow to help keep me focused and on track. I have had to make some adjustments because I don’t have an 8-5 job, but I am still reaping the benefits. I finally have more energy, no more cravings, got some of my favorite things back, and my eczema and “IBS” are improving. Did I forget something? Oh yeah, I am also losing weight!
The Plan has brought back my love of vegetables and has some amazingly delicious recipes that I probably would have never tried. It’s taught me that some of the habits I thought were healthy are actually detrimental to my efforts to be and remain healthy. And so far, it has confirmed some of my suspicions about exercise and eating. I still have quite a ways to go, but I have already learned quite a bit and am looking forward to what is to come. A big thank you and shout out to my sister who is a few steps ahead of me and keeping me motivated with her progress!! I am constantly reminded what an impact we have on our own happiness. It is so easy to become complacent and be comfortably miserable or unhappy. With a little work, change is right around the corner!